Grief doesn’t arrive cleanly. It leaks out sideways. Comedian Nacya Marreiro shares what it’s like to lose a parent before you’re ready—how fast her father’s cancer progressed, the shock of hospice, and the moment he said “I love you” for the first time… right before he died. This conversation captures early grief, when nothing makes sense yet. We talk about emotional numbness, delayed reactions, random crying, anger that doesn’t know where to land, and the unsettling realization that the world keeps moving even when yours stops. Nacya also opens up about a near-death experience she had as a teenager, family dynamics that complicate grief, unresolved resentment, and why humor often becomes a survival instinct after loss. This episode isn’t about closure or answers. It’s about what grief actually feels like in the beginning. If you’ve lost a parent—or you’re confused by your own reactions after loss—you’ll recognize yourself here. Follow Nacya Marreiro on instagram: https://www.instagram.com/officialnacyamarreiro/ For more on her shows and more: https://beacons.ai/nacyacomedy?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio&fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAc3J0YwZhcHBfaWQMMjU2MjgxMDQwNTU4AAGnwZgrBLSNMYsFDBeNaPaL3v7ejZBnLH1ADigpOF39CLl-ACSzuHK9ZeMn3t8_aem_inSggKVsELKd_PA_O1FG9Q Join the DEAD Talk Patreon for as low as $2/mo to support our mission & and gain access to exclusive content and features: 👉 https://patreon.com/deadtalks?utm_medium=unknown&utm_source=join_link&utm_campaign=creatorshare_creator&utm_content=copyLink Purchase hats, hoodies, shirts and more at the DEAD Talk Store: 👉 https://cottonbureau.com/people/dead-talks 10% off Neurogum made with sustainably-sourced natural caffeine, L-theanine, as well as vitamins B6 and B12, which have been scientifically shown to boost attention and enhance focus: https://neurogum.com/?utm_commission=deadtalkspodcast&platform=grin&link_id=1654933&token=WtumfL5E9dMY2DxZOVhMDDU7Z1f0OkyV&contact_id=8c837874-1ae8-4097-96fb-4809bfd0b22f&attribution_window=30 All links to everything DEAD Talks: 👉 https://linktr.ee/deadtalks DEAD Talks with David Ferrugio engages death a little bit differently. Each new guest shares their experience with grieving or perspective on death in a way that shatters the “don’t talk about death” taboo. Grief doesn't end; it evolves. Having lost his father on September 11th when he was 12, he learned the importance of discussion and sharing other people's stories. DEAD Talks Podcast hopes to make it a little easier to talk about grief, loss, death, mourning, trauma, or whatever it may be. You may cry, but you also may laugh. ⁠Follow DEAD Talks Podcast on YouTube, Instagram, TikTok + more⁠ ⁠www.deadtalks.net⁠ #losingaparent #griefpodcast #fatherdeath #comedians