Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Beau Oyler, a Salt Lake City man who was raised and still in Mormon. @churchofjesuschrist #hearhim @mormonstories #mormonstories For ad-free, uncensored videos and plenty of exclusive content please subscribe to the Soft White Underbelly subscription channel at https://softwhiteunderbelly.com. It's $10 a month and watchable on Apple and Android mobile apps, Roku TV, Apple TV and Amazon Fire. 0:00 –Intro 0:42 – Growing Up Mormon In CA 2:09 – Mormonism As A Cult 5:26 – Hemophilia, HIV & Losing His Brother 7:49 – Childhood Sexual Abuse 11:05 – Shame, Guilt & Religious OCD 14:06 – Life As A Devout Missionary 21:12 – Racism & Hierarchy In The Church 23:08 – Prop 8, Doubt & Inner Conflict 26:23 – Becoming Bishop & Losing Faith 29:07 – Wife’s Revelation 32:29 – Trading Certainty For Curiosity 35:15 – Conditional Love & Church Control 39:02 – Abuse & Church Corruption 49:39 – Son Rejects The Church 51:06 – Family Deconstruction & Identity Loss 52:21 – Psychedelics & Spiritual Awakening 57:03 – Learning To Trust Himself 58:07 – Thoughts On Religion & Control 1:01:16 – Journey To Nepal & Spiritual Growth 1:09:12 – The Raft Analogy & Letting Go Here's how to purchase the Soft White Underbelly books and merch: https://softwhiteunderbelly.org #swu #softwhiteunderbelly #documentary #marklaita #mormon #religion #growingup