Michelle Clyde shares her journey of faith transition within the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Growing up in Springville, Utah, she became more progressive in her views after her friend started the first gay-straight alliance in Utah Valley. Despite serving as a temple worker and in the Relief Society presidency, Michelle struggled with her experiences in the temple and her mental health. She opens up about her challenges during her mission in Taiwan, her journey through depression, and her evolving understanding of the church's history. Join us as Michelle reads from her journal and reveals the pivotal moments that led her to question her beliefs. Don’t miss this insightful discussion! Show Notes: https://www.mormonstories.org/temple-worker-loses-faith-michelle/ 00:00:00 Intro 00:04:00 Intentions for coming onto Mormon Stories 00:06:55 Beginning of her Mormon Story 00:13:53 Growing up in the Church 00:24:13 High School years 00:32:50 Lessons of the curse of the skin of blackness 00:34:44 Modesty lessons 00:36:04 Members in her High School group have mostly left the church 00:42:12 Hank Smith was her Seminary teacher 00:47:38 She started modeling in high school 00:59:24 Deciding to serve a mission 01:03:40 Going to the temple for the first time 01:14:03 The church branded her internal voice as Satan 01:17:39 What was the MTC like? 01:30:04 Her mission experience 01:52:42 Quentin L. Cook spoke in her mission 01:58:02 Her twin sister stopped attending church while Michelle was on her mission 02:02:38 She watched a TV show before her mission and confessed to her mission president 02:07:54 LGBTQ+ rights and experiences 02:12:00 Returning home from her mission 02:16:19 Speaking in Mandarin 02:21:38 Finally learning about female anatomy 02:30:30 Protests at BYU 02:40:33 Dr. Julie Hanks and how she helped her 02:46:13 Giving a talk about affirmations and people loved it 02:48:25 Being diagnosed with ADHD 02:53:39 Becoming a temple worker 02:58:04 Garments 03:16:34 Working as a Temple Worker 03:38:29 Women missing arm not allowed to perform ordinances 03:52:43 Wearing garments makes you feel you are robbed of childhood 03:55:15 I don’t need eternity. It’s always the villain seeking eternal life 04:05:55 Her mom should feel proud for how her kids turned out 04:07:40 Saying no to a calling, telling bishop she doesn’t believe any more 04:13:06 Body image issues disappear when perfectionism disappears 04:20:40 Is she worried about this interview at all? ___________________ At Mormon Stories we explore, celebrate, and challenge Mormon culture through in-depth stories told by members and former members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints as well as scholars, authors, LDS apologists, and other professionals. Our overall mission is to: 1. Facilitate informed consent amongst LDS Church members, investigators, and non-members regarding Mormon history, doctrine, and theology 2. Support Mormons (and members of other high-demand religions) who are experiencing a religious faith crisis 3. Promote healing, growth and community for those who choose to leave the LDS Church or other high demand religions 🤝Help us continue to deliver quality content by becoming a donor today One-time or recurring donations: https://donorbox.org/mormon-stories?default_interval=m Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories Venmo: https://account.venmo.com/u/mormonstories Paypal: https://paypal.me/mormonstories Join this channel to get access to perks: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx6OgmoqJbOVRq-Lv1P7SzA/join Our Platforms: 🌐Mormon Stories Blog: https://www.mormonstories.org/episodes 🎙️Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories ✳️Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4sDzk7dRjODTSEqzZKZJzk?si=148b0efc1ccc4404&nd=1 🍎Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mormon-stories-lds/id312094772 🖼️Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mormstories 📱TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mormonstoriespodcast 🎮Discord: https://discord.com/invite/kuX5p6yyjF Contact us: 📧 MormonStories@gmail.com 📬PO Box 171085, Salt Lake City, UT 84117