Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Nick Gomez, an author who writes on recovery. Nick's website is: realnicholasgomez.com For ad-free, uncensored videos and plenty of exclusive content please subscribe to the Soft White Underbelly subscription channel at softwhiteunderbelly.com. It's $10 a month and watchable on Apple and Android mobile apps, Roku TV, Apple TV and Amazon Fire. 0:00 – Intro 2:38 – Early Sexual Experiences & Internet Access 5:24 – Online Chats With Adult Men 8:22 – Teen Years & Obsessive Relationships 10:10 – Cheating, Gambling & Online Behavior 12:09 – Attraction & Shame 13:42 – First In-Person Encounter At 17 15:13 – College & Losing Control 16:50 – Addiction Or A Coping Mechanism? 17:44 – Risk & Fear Of Disease 19:13 – 2 Years Without Acting On It 21:22 – Dad’s Death & Extreme Relapse 23:32 – The Secret Persona & Recreating Abuse 25:15 – Dating Women While Carrying This Past 28:19 – Therapy, Psychedelics & Trying To Heal 30:05 – Neglect, Shame & Feeling Unwanted 31:45 – Too Much Access, Too Young 34:27 – Psychedelic Therapy & Revisiting Childhood Pain 37:02 – Life At 30 & Ongoing Urges 42:07 – What Therapy Helped Him Understand 46:08 – Writing As Healing & Telling The Truth 48:44 – His Books & Helping Others Heal Here's how to purchase the Soft White Underbelly books and merch: https://softwhiteunderbelly.org #swu #softwhiteunderbelly #documentary #marklaita #childhoodtrauma #recovery