Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Sydney, a woman who has climbed out of trauma and dysfunction to build a better life. 0:00 Physical Pain, Self-Harm & Tattoos 2:25 Alcohol Addiction at 11 Years Old 9:20 Self-Harm, Eating Disorder & Childhood Trauma 12:05 A Teacher Recognizes Her Alcoholism 18:00 Getting Sober at 15 25:40 Her 17-Year-Old Brother Is Murdered 32:15 The Unsolved Murder & Cold Case 41:18 Grief, Dissociation & Staying Sober 48:17 Revealing Childhood Sexual Abuse 58:20 Pregnancy, Motherhood & Breaking the Cycle 1:10:40 Postpartum Depression & Abortion 1:19:18 Separation, Treatment & Starting Over 1:22:12 Becoming a Stripper & Starting OnlyFans 1:28:52 Trauma Bond, Fentanyl & a Toxic Relationship 1:35:47 Her Daughter’s Father Overdoses 1:38:55 Fighting for Full Custody 1:44:23 From Trauma Survivor to Addiction Counselor 1:45:41 Life Today: 14 Years Sober For full-length, ad-free and uncensored videos please subscribe to the Soft White Underbelly subscription channel at softwhiteunderbelly.com. It's $10 a month and watchable on Apple and Android mobile apps, Roku TV, Apple TV and Amazon Fire. Here's how to purchase the Soft White Underbelly books and merch: https://softwhiteunderbelly.org #swu #softwhiteunderbelly #documentary #marklaita #depression #recoveryjourney #mentalhealth #postpartum #motherhood #soberlife