Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Deco, a father in South Central Los Angeles. For ad-free, uncensored videos and plenty of exclusive content please subscribe to the Soft White Underbelly subscription channel at https://softwhiteunderbelly.com. It's $10 a month and watchable on Apple and Android mobile apps, Roku TV, Apple TV and Amazon Fire. 0:02 Growing Up in South Central LA 1:12 Mom Shot in a Drive-by, Prison and Family Trauma 2:09 Brother’s Death and Spiral Into Loss 3:28 Divorce, Job Loss, and Street Life 4:25 Drugs and Life on the Streets 5:26 Regret, Fatherhood, and Shame 7:06 Kids Lost to the System 9:55 Living at Home But Staying Away 11:04 Cycles of Jail, Relapse, and Depression 12:09 Discovering Purpose and Helping Others 13:19 Daughter’s Birth During Police Chase 16:15 PTSD, Domestic Violence, and Divorce 19:56 Regret and Hope for His Kids 21:17 More Children, More Loss 22:48 Drug Use and Crushing Depression 24:14 Near-Death Experience and Awakening 26:26 Bonding With His Niece 28:59 Visions of the Future Confirmed 31:35 Closing and Book Promo Here's how to purchase the Soft White Underbelly book and merch: https://softwhiteunderbelly.org. #swu #softwhiteunderbelly #documentary #marklaita #southcentralla #father #mentalhealth #nde