Former Los Angeles County gang enforcement deputy Robert Gillis has survived officer-involved shootings, gang wars, death threats from the Mexican Mafia, and one of the darkest personal chapters of his life. Watch this episode in studio here: https://youtu.be/NvUuWeZvfPQ In Episode 118 of the Wild Chaos Podcast, Robert shares what happens after the shooting stops. From replaying deadly encounters over and over, hearing a child scream for him to stop shooting his father, and questioning every decision afterward, this conversation exposes the mental toll law enforcement rarely talks about. Robert also opens up about using alcohol to cope, receiving a DUI that ultimately changed his life, and why lazy police work—not just corrupt policing—can destroy innocent lives and public trust. Later, we dive into gang investigations, surviving a Mexican Mafia green light, officer mental health, police accountability, and Robert's work helping draft Idaho legislation aimed at expanding the death penalty for the worst child predators. If you've ever wondered what years of violence, trauma, and impossible decisions do to a police officer, this is one of the most honest conversations we've had. 👇 Let us know in the comments: What needs to change first—officer mental health, accountability, or the criminal justice system? 🔔 Subscribe for more real, raw, and remarkable conversations every Monday. Follow Wild Chaos on Social Media: Apple iTunes: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-wild-chaos-podcast/id1732761860 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5KFGZ6uABb1sQlfkE2TIoc?si=8ff748aa4fc64331 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/wildchaospodcast Bam's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bambam0069 YouTube: https://youtube.com/@wildchaospod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thewildchaospodcast Meta (Facebook): https://www.facebook.com/TheWildChaosPodcast For business inquiries, email us at: info@thewildchaos.com