Join John Dehlin and Gerardo as we interview social media influencer Hayley Rawle. Hayley is the host of the “Girlscamp” Podcast. She was raised in the church, served a mission, married in the temple, and got her degree at BYU. In her story we will cover the struggles she had within her family, modesty culture, the hardships of serving a mission, gender roles in marriage, infertility, and more. As she puts it, “It’s like a normal Mormon story with a twist.” Episode Show Notes: https://www.mormonstories.org/podcast/hayley-rawle/ 00:00:00 Beginning 00:04:10 Hayley’s intentions on coming on Mormon Stories 00:05:40 Childhood, Parents, grandparents 00:06:40 Steven Walker is her grandpa, BYU literature professor 00:16:00 Mormon upbringing, typical Mormon and not at the same time, father’s struggles 00:23:35 Childhood stories that promoted the faith. 00:26:44 Lot of anxiety around the Holy Ghost 00:28:45 Adolescent and teen years 00:33:45 Bumping up against authority, she was taking liberties, doctrinally, 00:43:47 Modesty, story of the bikini and bishop interview 01:02:40 Seminary years 01:15:20 EFY experiences, dress coded (Mormon summer church camp) 01:19:50 The church creates a gender based template 01:22:35 Patriarchal blessing, “you will serve a full time mission” 01:32:00 Her parents divorced when she was 13 01:35:20 She got called to Germany 01:40:12 Her mission stories 01:42:10 Struggled with mental health and wanting to return home 01:57:48 Coming home from her mission 01:59:20 Five months from stepping off the plane, meeting him, and getting married. 02:06:40 Vaginismus -pain with sex due to psychological issues 02:12:50 Difficulties of marriage 02:19:30 Gradated BYU childless 02:22:50 Her friend came out as gay, falling out with him. 02:31:55 Infertility 02:37:20 Connections with Womanhood and Motherhood 02:50:40 Reexamining gender roles in marriage 02:55:30 The parts of Mormonism I didn’t want to raise my kids in 02:59:45 Story of bearing testimony at niece's baby blessing 03:03:20 Truth claim problems 03:09:00 Deciding to start a Mormon Podcast 03:25:35 Initial goal with her podcast 03:36:00 The interest of Non-Mormons and Mormonism in the podcasting world ___________________ At Mormon Stories we explore, celebrate, and challenge Mormon culture through in-depth stories told by members and former members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints as well as scholars, authors, LDS apologists, and other professionals. Our overall mission is to: 1. Facilitate informed consent amongst LDS Church members, investigators, and non-members regarding Mormon history, doctrine, and theology 2. Support Mormons (and members of other high-demand religions) who are experiencing a religious faith crisis 3. Promote healing, growth and community for those who choose to leave the LDS Church or other high demand religions 🤝Help us continue to deliver quality content by becoming a donor today One-time or recurring donations: https://donorbox.org/mormon-stories?default_interval=m Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories Our Platforms: 🌐Mormon Stories Blog: https://www.mormonstories.org/episodes 🎙️Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories ✳️Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4sDzk7dRjODTSEqzZKZJzk?si=148b0efc1ccc4404&nd=1 🍎Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mormon-stories-lds/id312094772 🖼️Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mormstories 📱TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mormonstoriespodcast 🎮Discord: https://discord.com/invite/kuX5p6yyjF Contact us: 📧 MormonStories@gmail.com 📬PO Box 171085, Salt Lake City, UT 84117 #MormonStories #Mormon #lds