What happens when a Mormon woman questions her faith—but doesn’t walk away entirely? In this week's interview, Olivia Calvert shares her journey of embracing doubts and shifts in belief. Choosing to live Mormonism in her own way, Olivia’s path leads her to what she calls “casual discipleship.” While we have explored stories like this before from men in the church, it is rare for an LDS woman to open up about her faith in this way. Topics include: -Purity culture -Faith crises -Church history -Choosing to stay Mormon—on your own terms. If you’ve ever felt like you don’t quite fit the Mormon mold, this story might be exactly what you need to hear. Join us as we talk about the many ways people are navigating Mormonism today. Show notes can be found on the Mormon Stories blog here: https://www.mormonstories.org/mormon-on-my-own-terms/ TImecodes: 00:00:00 Introduction 00:05:00 What was her Mormon upbringing like? 00:14:46 Felt it was a burden to be Mormon, was not proud of it 00:18:49 Her thoughts on Lehi’s dream in her youth 00:34:54 Making up her own rules around law of chastity 00:53:04 Attended BYU Provo 01:05:26 Started to feel shame around her drinking: “Good mormon boys don't want a party girl” 01:16:00 Felt a prompting to serve a mission 01:23:09 Met her husband on her mission 01:31:28 First temple experience 01:54:41 How watching the Real Housewives of Salt Lake City and Secret Lives of Mormon Wives affected her testimony 02:05:40 How did her beliefs begin to shift in 2024? 02:10:36 Traveling home to Denver for a family reunion - was meeting with family members that left the church 02:30:03 What were the three biggest issues she found with the church? 02:36:37 Where has her testimony ended up? Why does she still attend? 02:49:52 What commandments does she not try to follow anymore? 02:57:20 Thoughts on temple recommend? God and the covenant path. 03:06:40 Is the church becoming more tolerant to this kind of Mormon? 03:16:42 What is her response to the fact that the church is homophobic? 03:23:03 How does she maintain a belief in God and Jesus? 03:20:37 Faith crisis a gift? - ”I would encourage everyone to doubt/question” 03:26:58 Is she afraid of any consequences of coming on Mormon Stories? 03:34:02 Conclusion ___________________ At Mormon Stories we explore, celebrate, and challenge Mormon culture through in-depth stories told by members and former members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints as well as scholars, authors, LDS apologists, and other professionals. Our overall mission is to: 1. Facilitate informed consent amongst LDS Church members, investigators, and non-members regarding Mormon history, doctrine, and theology 2. Support Mormons (and members of other high-demand religions) who are experiencing a religious faith crisis 3. Promote healing, growth and community for those who choose to leave the LDS Church or other high demand religions 🤝Help us continue to deliver quality content by becoming a donor today One-time or recurring donations: https://donorbox.org/mormon-stories?default_interval=m Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories Venmo: https://account.venmo.com/u/mormonstories Paypal: https://paypal.me/mormonstories Join this channel to get access to perks: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx6OgmoqJbOVRq-Lv1P7SzA/join Our Platforms: 🌐Mormon Stories Blog: https://www.mormonstories.org/episodes 🎙️Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories ✳️Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4sDzk7dRjODTSEqzZKZJzk?si=148b0efc1ccc4404&nd=1 🍎Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mormon-stories-lds/id312094772 🖼️Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mormstories 📱TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mormonstoriespodcast 🎮Discord: https://discord.com/invite/kuX5p6yyjF Contact us: 📧 MormonStories@gmail.com 📬PO Box 171085, Salt Lake City, UT 84117